Almost Losing Myself

This past few weeks, i didn't have mood to post anything in my blog. There's so many stuff playing in my mind, i feel so weak and tired but yet i have to keep on moving forward. I tried so hard but still not enough, seems like the luck is not on my side. Feel like I've been born with a bad karma.

I carried a burden that i can't handle, it's too heavy until i can't even stand on my own feet, i almost gave up everything, but my mission is not even completed. There still someone who depends on me, and that what really concern me most; What if i can't give my hand in the future. I'm losing my self, , i was confused because the burden keep on heavier than before, I'm thinking of my next plan and my problem at my house balcony, seems like there's is no solution at all, so then my mind told me to jump so then all the pain gone. I almost follow the command but suicide is not the answer. I still have my self conscious, and i know there still a lot things i yet not discover. I sat on the edge of my balcony, my tears fall down, picture of my old folks, siblings, girlfriend appear in my mind, i really miss them a lot; after a few minutes I regain my strength and told my self "It's not over yet".



For what had happen lately make me think that I'm useless, as a friend, boyfriend and a brother. I wish i can spin the time backward and finish up things that I'd quit. Maybe if i continue it, i have a better future and for sure i can handle this situation now. But, no matter what, i have to accept the fact that it's already to late to regret on everything.

But, i still not surrender. As long i have both of my arm and legs, i know i can do it. I willing to sacrifice everything even for my own future. What bear in my mind now is, everything should be back to normal like before, so while waiting for the moment, i have to do what can i do best.

Now, i know feeling what make people killing them self, a question without any answer, yelling for help but no one there to hear, a problem without any solution, and many more reason.

I'm glad choose the right decision. I still have unaccomplished mission, and it should be done.

Don't you guys know what symphaty is? Let us boycott KOSMO!

See the KOSMO! paper was out on 27 Julai on Monday, a day after the Yasmin Ahmad died. We can see the a bit of bad part infront of the paper, but after we turn to page second page.. it was a damn humiliating to a person who just died and as well to the family. Don't the journalist have feeling at all!?? Before you guys post it at the newspaper, do check either it true or not! I do some research of mine, and i do satisfied on my research, if its true or not! WHO CARE!.. we should be proud of what had she done, she has open the eyes of the world that our film had standard like theirs, she opened our eyes on how is the community in Malaysia, what the actual problem in Malaysia. A bit pissed off here. I'm not cursing who ever related on the KOSMO! paper, but what happened if your love one died and someone talk bad on your love one. You guys must be mad is it!.. That thing happen with us, she not my mom, not my sister, not my friend and even i never see her face to face before (diff lah in TV), but i feel connected with her. Her amazing film, petronas ads its all changed my preception on others, and it might be happen to others too.

Shame on you guys. The family is still mourning, and you guys celebrating with cheap ads in your PAPER!.. You guys KOSMO! has really pissed off many Malaysian, who know from a Ringgit to 25 cents in the future.. OUT OF BUSINESS! You know what i mean! BOYCOTT KOSMO!

To Mr. Tan Yew Leong and family, be patience and we out here will still with your family. Everyday you and family in our prayer and as well goes to Arwah Yasmin.

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The Stupid article from KOSMO!

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BOYCOTT KOSMO!

Or just email those bastard

berita@kosmo.com.my

My Appreciation To Late Yasmin Ahmad and My Deepest Condelence to Tan Yew Leong and Family

*Updated with Tan Yew Leong Picture and Add Tan Yew Leong in Facebook.

I noticed and recognized her on her very beautiful, touching and meaningful ads on television which most of it showed before any celebration in Malaysia. I admit some of the ads makes me cried and until now, if i watch it back it still tears me up, my feeling guilt on my parents and to others. Her work really touched me and changed me in many way.

I hardly believed that she has gone, one great artist and a thinker she was. I salute all her work. What the work she has done is a completed "ONE MALAYSIA". That what i mean in my last post this early in the morning. She has open our eyes on how the community in Malaysia.

So for my contribute for the late Yasmin Ahmad i want to share you guys some of her work here. Enjoy it and at the same time let we pray for her soul, that may her soul rest in peace and not to forget my big condolence the her husband, Mr. Tan Yew Leong.

Tan Yew Leong

Tan Yew Leong With Late Yasmin Ahmad

Tan Yew Leong with Late Yasmin Ahmad

I grab those photo on From the Late Yasmin Ahmad Facebook and Tan Yew Leong Facebook Profile

You guys can add Tan Yew Leong in Facebook

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Here are some of The late Yasmin Ahmad Work

No Charge My The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Family By The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Chinese New Year Ads By The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Merdeka Sunat By The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Tan Hong Ming Love By The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Funeral TVC by The Late Yasmin Ahmad

"check it more in http://www.youtube.com"

Thou you're gone,

But still your magic stick with us,

You are Queen,

Queen of creator,

Which has create a harmony environment,

The world will be a better place if there were more like you,

You made every Malaysian ,

Want to be a Malaysian,

You are the true "One Malaysia".

Rest In Peace "StoryTeller" The Late Yasmin Ahmad.

May her Soul Rest In Peace

As we know internationally-acclaimed movie director Yasmin Ahmad, suffered a stroke while attending a meeting at Sri Pentas on Thursday. But Today after i checked on her status. I nearly shocked because she has passed away yesterday on 11.25pm.

I really admired her worked and her talent. She has open our eyes on how is the community in Malaysia.

Here is the article that i get from the internet and might be out on this morning in newspaper

Yasmin Ahmad dies

2009/07/25

Bernama

KUALA LUMPUR: Renowned film and advertising director Yasmin Ahmad died here at about 11.25pm on Saturday night.

Her death was confirmed by Media Prime Group Chief Operations Officer Datuk Seri Ahmad Farid Ridzuan, who was at the Damansara Specialists Hospital, when contacted by Bernama.

Yasmin, 51, collapsed while presenting a working paper at Sri Pentas, the headquarters of the private television station TV3 on Thursday and was rushed to the Damansara Specialists Hospital.

She was reported to have suffered a stroke and brain haemorrhage.

Yasmin left a legacy of her works in the film and advertisement arenas, thriving on the themes of love, family ties and comedy against the backdrop of multiracial Malaysia.

Born in Bukit Treh, Muar, Johor on July 1 1958, Yasmin, who graduated in psychology from Newcastle University, United Kingdom, had won local and international creativity awards.

Married to Abdullah Tan Yew Leong, she began her career as a copywriter with Ogilvy & Mather before joining Leo Burnnett as joint creative director in 1993 and rose to become its creative executive director until her death.

Her creativity could be seen in many Petronas' commercials and evoked emotion of the viewers especially during the Aidilfitri celebration which would certainly be missed by viewers this year.

In the filming industry, Yasmin, however, drew much controversy in view of her openness and boldness in analysing social issues.

She was at the mercy of critics since her first movie, "Rabun" was screened in 2003 followed by "Sepet" (2004), "Gubra" (2006), "Mukhsin" (2006), "Muallaf" (2008) and Talentime (2009).

Despite the drawbacks, she also earned rave reviews for "Sepet" which was accorded the Best Film Award and the Best Original Screenplay Award at the Malaysian Film Festival 2005.

"Sepet" also bagged several international awards, namely the Asian Film Award at the Tokyo International Film Festival 2005, the Grand Prix Award at the Creteil International Women's Film Festival in the same year.

"Gubra" won the Best Screenplay award at the Malaysian Film Festival 2006.

"Muhsin" won the Generation kplus - Best Feature Film and the Deutsches Kinderhilfswerk Grand Prix award at the Berlin International Film Festival.

"Mukhsin" also won the Best Asean Film at the Cinemanila International Film Festival 2007.

"Muallaf" won the Asian Film Award - Special Mention at the Tokyo International Film Festival 2008.

While leaving indelible mark at home, Yasmin's movies gained international recognition as they were shown in Berlin, San Francisco, Singapore and at the Cannes Film Festival.

You can check as well her blog on

http://yasminthefilmmaker.blogspot.com

May her soul rest in peace

The Late Yasmin Ahmad

Respect your server

Have you guys ever go to a busy restaurant having lunch or dinner. I guess most of you do is it? Well i'm working as a bartender in one famous restaurant in malaysia, and i believe its been known by everyone already.

We serve our customer with our best service, good food and of course good DRINKS, ya lah.. i'm a bartenderkan, ask for special one, i will give it to you.. :P, but free drinks, don't ever think about it. Me also cari makan, who want to give me work if the company fired me?

Well about the service, as we know, we all human... everyone do mistake, because not everyone is perfect is it? If someone in this world is perfect 100% in each way, i give him/her a big salute!

But this post is not about our service but respect,what will you feel if you treat someone in a proper manner and he/she didn't do the same thing to you, we who are working i the restaurant are also human. I wonder where all the good manner inside us, but if your server act, super ego like a dog, so treat them like a dog.

Yesterday, we have a guest at lunch time, all five of us still can manage the floor and handle about 17 table inside and out. As for me, i have to run the drinks, do the drinks and take order from other table. And then, we have a new customer which is a winner from Akademi Fantasia, the winner act so cool but his friend so damn rude and stupid. As a Malay, where is your language on calling someone, is it a good language on calling on someone like this "weeeii, weeiii, weeii come, come here. Take our order" with his finger pointing to us, and some fierce face. Grr.. like i'm scared. Where the word that everybody usually say for example "excuse me, can you take our order pls".. if that kind of word, out from your mouth, for sure you will received the greatest serve at the universe, and that the best tips for all, how to get a better service. But after the situation and that kind of manner, my friend still entertain them with a big smile and take their other, but the service maybe below the average. (the picture above just a picture, actually the lady she a nice person and cute some more, you guys can check on her blog on http://karen-mysensation.blogspot.com )

What ever happen, we still have to smile and great our guest with a smile and open heart. For those who read this and done like the person in the situation above, do please respect others. We are malaysian, we are born with manner that been teach by our parents when we still young.

but as for me, you act good, i act gooder (hahahaha) but if you act like a dog, i act like a satan but in my way.. got secret to teach to those who don't have manner.. wanna know what i gonna do? hihihi.. dare to ask me?

Piece of Paper

I won't promote any sites in my post today, I've been missing few days, i didn't update my blog and even didn't click any ads to make money. Because my internet connection being cut, because of late payment and until now still not making any payment but thanks to my buddy for borrowing me his WIGGY P1 WIMAX, as i promise i'll continue the payment after.

I admit now days, I've been struggling to find any way of making money, I've been working like dog in hell but still I'm out of budget every month, thanks to those who really being UNDERSTANDING these while which really make pain in my ass.

As i mention in my previous post "Money is not everything, but everything need money". In this post i want to share you guys what i think of the meaning of MONEY and what money really can do.

I really respect the power of a piece of paper, a piece of paper can change anything we want or in other word we usually called it money. Money bring happiness to others, happiness?? why it can make us happy? for example; What we must have in our pocket when we go clubbing? Money!!.. what we can get when we go clubbing?? Happy!! Drunk!! Our own satisfaction. How money bring happiness to others? Usually we see a hunger beggar in the street, begging money to survive, when we donate few bucks to the beggar, we already make their life in joyful and happiness, because of those few bucks they can buy food for him/her, and the beggar won't be starving for that day. Money bring happiness, yeah i admit that. A little girl cried for a new BARBIE set, yeah it really cost you a lot but still if we want the little girl stop crying, we have to buy those BARBIE set which still need MONEY to buy it. See, how the power of money make people smile, helps other and make the world keep spinning in peace.

But in some kind of manner, money destroy everything. It destroy humanity, destroyed the world peace, it bring greed to other, and it's powerful enough to break a bonds in a family, relatives and friends!!. Let us think thoroughly, a simple paper powerful enough to ruin and change your life, trust, loyalty, harmony or maybe losing people who always besides you. So before you do something with your money, think first, "Should i" or "i Should not"?.